Alright, so after over a month of non-activity, due to my lack of knowledge of my own site password, we’re bak in bizness™! Hope you’ve missed the goodness found here and look forward to reading more. I’ll begin posting ASAP!
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20JulBak in Bizness™!
My brother celebrated his 24th birthday this past Friday. It was a joyous event, complete with Breckenridge (Um, the one in Richardson TX…) Park’s fine scenery, friends and family, frisbee action, hula dancers, world’s tastiest burgers, and a pavilion. Sadly, I decided to jump up and grab the pavilion’s roof, failing to realize its razor edge had a fetish of sorts for human palms!!! 7 stitches later and the rest is history..
I never thought that blogging could actually become competitive. That is, until the day my brother boasted about his web ratings. I know that’s not the technical terminology for it; but when he proudly typed “Brett” into yahoo and his site popped up in the top 50, I knew right then, “IT’S ON!” I just spent the past few minutes looking for my own site. I typed in “Josh” and made it through the first 14 pages of sites, disappointed by my failure to appear. But hey, it’s difficult when you’re competing with the likes of singer/songwriter Josh Groban, or ultra sexy (but ultra sucky role getter) Josh Hartnett, singer/songwriters Josh Rouse and Joshua Radin, and we can’t forget Joshua Darden!!! I don’t know who he is, but he made it to page 12, and I’m jealous :/
So what have I learned from this? Have I learned that my worth in the blogging world is in Jesus and not my standing? Or that these sites are about the beauty and simplicity of individuals’ thoughts, ideas, and the wonder of the internet’s freedom of expression?? NO!
I’ve learned that no matter where I go, what I do, who I’m with (or, not with), or why I’m doing it, COMPETITION has a way of rousing itself from the depths and seeping into every facet of my life. And I’m okay with that, because it’s that very thing which will boost me to page 1 of yahoo and google.com. And when that happens, I’ll land sweet advertising that will make even the likes of Groban, Hartnett AND Darden foam at the mouf!
“BOOYAH JOSHES! IT’S ON!!!”
“ROOOOAAAAAARRRRRRR! ROOOOOAAAAAARRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!”
i’d like to thank everyone who visits, comments, and spreads the news of this site … it’s because of misguided people like you that i will win.
22MayFallen teeth???
I love brushing my teeth. Praise God, I go to the coolest dentist in Allen, TX (Dr. Williams) and his office hands out the newest technology Sonicare has to offer to customers when they graduate from high school. 5 years ago, they gave me the Elite 7300 ($169) and it has served me well with little maintenance. Tonight however, I was using the ol’ hand powered, because I dropped the Elite yesterday, and snapped her replaceable head off! Luckily, it was past the exalted 6 month mark anyway, and needed replacing, so the experience contained little to no grief. So tonight, as I was moving my hand back and forth, in and out, trying to hit that magical 60 degree angle of cleanliness, I realized just how hard it is to keep these daggum bicuspids pearly. IN FACT it’s so difficult, mine aren’t as nearly as pearly as I desire!!
I wondered, did God make these teeth, or did they appear after Adam and Eve did their lil dance with the orchard’s disfavored fruit tree? Of course even A and E needed some sort of platform upon which to crush the fruit, nuts, leaves, grass, and sticks (whatever was their favorite dish) they inserted. But were they this hard to keep sexy? BY GOD GATES, did A and E flaunt the English look?!! In Bible College, I studied Genesis in Hebrew, and I don’t recall it mentioning built in brushes in the cellular make-up of plants back in the day before the Garden became a desert. I’m afraid I’ll have to store this question away in my “Questions for the Heavenlies” folder for whenever I join them at the feast. To be honest, if while I’m sitting next to the Apostle Paul, across the table from Methusalah, and asking Moses to pass the rolls, I see floss on the table, and a little holder filled with complimentary Listerine Whitening Strips, heaven just might experience its first shoulder slump.
22MayDid u c that??
The consensus came in the other day, and it found that people generally don’t like being looked at. The “Mirror” has the rare opportunity of seeing the things people cover up when others are around. To be honest, it would be a little creepy to be a mirror. Well anyways, I love watching people. When I walk around malls, or parks, I can’t help but make eye contact with every single person I come within “white of the eyes” distance..it’s sort of a super power actually.
What I love about people watching, is you can learn so much about a person through mere glimpses of their life. For example, I was sitting in the park this past Sunday, enjoying my 5 year high school reunion with 6 of the 9 in my graduating class, and had the opportunity not only to talk with them and catch up, but also to see other people enjoying the park- there weren’t many white people, but I’ll save that for another post. At one point, a man ran by with 5 pound weights strapped around his ankles. He was pretty burly, and hairy, running in the heat WITH WEIGHTS ON HIS ANKLES. Call me crazy, but I do believe this individual has a side of intensity and drive to him. Who knows what I would have learned about him had we crossed eyes while sitting in a restaurant. Maybe he eats with his mouth open, tips well, sits with his foot on the other, likes to listen more than speak, or would be sitting alone because he’s divorced, or sitting in a group because he has 9 children!!! BY GOD GATES, WHO KNOWS!
And that is why I love people watching, and while it would be creepy to be a mirror, I think I would gladly assume the position for a day. People are beautiful and worth watching. And as a person, I think it’s my duty to allow others to watch the true me so that they can learn from me, and so that I can gain from their feedback on what they see.
mirror mirror on the wall, please help me show others what I show you.
22MayExplosions
So, I’m on a journey of withholding my ears from the sound of music (um, not the flick) for 4 AND A HALF DAYS! If you were born between 1980 and 1998, you know why sweat hasn’t stopped streaming from my mind even though I’m only a day and a half into this desperate act.
The effects of this act of discipline have been rather fascinating, and I can’t exactly say I’ve been proud of myself. But I guess that’s how all detoxing is. Something goes out, usually with sharp prongs pointed towards the exit, but beauty always seems to find its way in: Totally worth it. So, I’m glad I’m doing it, and will hopefully have a story of enlightenment and mental clarity come Saturday evening!
Interestingly enough, there has been one band that has tempted me to hit Select, and press Enter on my iTunes: Explosions in the Sky. If you haven’t heard of them, the name alone should encourage you to check em’ out.. I’ve never experienced such a blend of adverse melodies … really quite intoxicating. A few of my favorite tunes:
(1) Welcome, Ghosts (2) What Do You Go Home To? (3) So Long, Lonesome (4) Time Stops (5) Have You Passed Through This Night
What I really love about them is that they’re purely instrumental. Apparently all the band members can sing really well … but decided unanimously to pursue “something”, and help others discover that “something”, through instruments alone. Their passion is inspiring and can’t be missed, even through a set of comp speakers. My lips are moist just writing about them..
I got a Mac Air a few weeks ago and it’s pretty much changed my perspective of myself and life itself. No more are the days of cynicism- experienced every time I embarked upon the painful journey of booting up my Windows XP Home Edition. This lil baby is so freakin sleek and smooth sometimes a tear drops onto it’s large smart pad while I’m checking my facebook. Seriously though, I got a Gateway laptop a little over a year and a half ago, and as of March, it was freezing 3 times a day! BY GOD GATES!!!
I think my favorite thing about my new mac is that I don’t even know how to create file folders to organize my word documents. Some people get pissed off by change and that sense of lostness and would never buy one for that very reason. I’m enjoying the sense of adventure it’s brought … something I haven’t felt since the switch from “easy tear”, to individual sheets of printer paper!!
As for personal self-discovery, I’ve found a new sense of belonging in coffee shops, and my brother’s home when his web development schmos get together for work 
21MayLAW SCHOOL SPRING 08
“Mr. Tilford, please step forward, the jury has reached a verdict!”
I awake in a pool of sweat and emotional spazzing … even my old malfunctioning virus and spyware ridden PC offers comfort.
I’ve been getting some grades back from this past spring semester. I’m always slightly amazed by how the digits differ from those in undergrad: particularly the digit preceding the period (.). It’s a great opportunity to reflect on who I am as a person. If the digit preceding the period is a 4, have I then arrived? Or if there’s a 1, am I a complete failure deserving eternal toilet duty??!!!
It’s also easy to become soo focused on this outcome, that the journey leading up to them is forgotten. If I failed my legal writing class, would I forget the night the Lord answered my prayer, enabling me beyond all odds to ignore exhaustion and finish my appellate brief? Will I forget the many times I walked to and from class just thankful to be on Regent’s beautiful campus?
Regardless of the outcome of this adventure, the sun is shining and so am I!
